What does "first love" actually mean?
I met my "first love" my freshman year of high school. We were in band together. I hated band, but I loved him. He warmed my soul. We never had a fight, and we never made love, but we had love. Because I am a girl, and was naive at the time, I thought we would be together forever. I was wrong. We lasted about six months. The break up hit me like a baseball on a bat swinging as fast as any major league ball player could hit it. I cried. I cried during school (yuck), but I never begged to get him back. If I remember right, I think I tried to convince him to take me back, but I never begged. He was the first and last boyfriend I ever cried over.....and ever asked to marry me.
I only heard from him once after that. He called me from boot camp. He asked me if I remembered "our word". Of course I remembered it! How could I forget "our word" when I had loved him so much? You don't just forget once the relationship is over. I remember all the small details of our brief, but AMAZING love. We ended that phone conversation with "our word". I had loved him with everything I had in that short time we were together. I knew after that phone conversation that he had loved me too. It was a young love, but it was my "first love".
Do you ever forget your "first love"? Does the love stay there and never leave? This leads me to apudne te vel me. This is Latin for 'your place or mine'. Am I at a place where I want to be in my life, or would I rather be somewhere else? Do I just keep moving forward with the way things are, or do I want more for myself, but do I have it all already? I don't know the answer to that.
I met my "first love" my freshman year of high school. We were in band together. I hated band, but I loved him. He warmed my soul. We never had a fight, and we never made love, but we had love. Because I am a girl, and was naive at the time, I thought we would be together forever. I was wrong. We lasted about six months. The break up hit me like a baseball on a bat swinging as fast as any major league ball player could hit it. I cried. I cried during school (yuck), but I never begged to get him back. If I remember right, I think I tried to convince him to take me back, but I never begged. He was the first and last boyfriend I ever cried over.....and ever asked to marry me.
I only heard from him once after that. He called me from boot camp. He asked me if I remembered "our word". Of course I remembered it! How could I forget "our word" when I had loved him so much? You don't just forget once the relationship is over. I remember all the small details of our brief, but AMAZING love. We ended that phone conversation with "our word". I had loved him with everything I had in that short time we were together. I knew after that phone conversation that he had loved me too. It was a young love, but it was my "first love".
Do you ever forget your "first love"? Does the love stay there and never leave? This leads me to apudne te vel me. This is Latin for 'your place or mine'. Am I at a place where I want to be in my life, or would I rather be somewhere else? Do I just keep moving forward with the way things are, or do I want more for myself, but do I have it all already? I don't know the answer to that.
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